Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Sorry I Murdered Myself

Kismat...Jo likha thha wo ho gaya..wo kiya maine.
Maine hi kiya- ya khud ho gaya?Kya mere bas me thha..
aaj hazaar khayal aate hain- ki mai rok leti, badal deti apni kismat...
Shayad mere hi haathon se mere apne zameer ka khoon likha thha...

Haan- maine hi kiya, mujhse hi hua hai katl-
aur kisi ko kya dosh doon jab maine khud apni awaaz nahi suni

Mai chillati rahi, par maine khud hi apna gala ghot diya
chup kara diya sachchai ko
Jab mai hi sachchai ke liye nahi lad saki
to aur kisi ko kya dosh doon..

Jab maine hi buraai ka saath diya...
maine hi to galti ki
Mera to zameer thha - maar daala
yun hi khoon kar diya

aur usko maarkar mai jee sakti hoon kya...

har pal aatm-hatya
har pal ek maut
haan- mai to har pal ek maut jee rahi hoon

Kitne dinon se zindagi me dard ka ehsaas nahi thha
ab aisa dard hai ki aur kuchh nahi raha
na zindagi, na ehsaas

bas ek besahara, laachaar si zindagi
jo kisi bhi maut se kahin buri hai

jab khud apna vishwaas tod diya-
to kisi se kya gila

jab khud se sachchai nahi ki
to aur kisi se kya ummeed

haan- mere hi to haathon mera khoon hua hai...

1 comment:

umdi said...

Well .. there is always a rebirth.. punar janam ke bare me socha hai kya? Har ant ek nai shuruvaat leke aata hai!