Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Masochism and Hope

Kitna filmi title hai na! But the pain of waiting for a phone that never rings...
Aisa kyun hota hai..

Why can one not relegate him to the depths of hell... and get on with one's work? Kaisa intezaar, kaisi bebasi.
And the realization ki ye laachaargi is only one-sided, he isn't staring at the phone and praying for it to ring...willing it to ring...

He is NOT waiting......
Is this good...to find somebody so utterly necessary to your existence as a human being? Or bad? For the pain is self-inflicted.

Love has to be the most extreme form of masochism.

4 comments:

unknown said...

hey rachna,
all ur blogs remind me of moments that i hv gone thru.. felt EXACTLY the same.. and i ve promised myself its not happenning again..
love shud be abt healing then why does it always hurt?

Rustic Angels.... said...

girls.. girls... i really have no idea whats going on but.. all i have to say is that... dosent you phone have outgoing.. and cant you make that call rather.. than wait for ..HIM to call.. this is all ways the case..

Baba Ganooj said...

i don't mean to piss all over your post - but I have to agree with rustic angels on that one...

the excuse, girls usually give, is that "since it is your fault that i am angry, you have to make the call." in more cases than not, the guy does not even know why she is angry - and the girl refuses to disclose that - now what is he supposed to do?

(ps i am obviously on the other side of the fence and have to make up so I am not trying to bitch and complain)

Sumedha said...

Rach,
This is the first time I am reading your blogs...they are fantastic!!!
I especially relate to this one!

The phone never rings!!!!!!
I disagree with rustic angels and baba ganooj.....calling up someone DOES mean that YOU are not the one in control any longer.....
relationships are complicated business...but what I have discovered is that if a guy is not calling you and you call him....at a sub comscios level, you are giving him a level of control over how the realtionship goes...
you know me darl, the hardcore feminist...and I'm all for emncipation etc...but unfortunately, the above views are my voice of experience talking...
My advice:....F him!!!!he doent doesnt deserve you!