Sunday, July 16, 2006

Permanent Denial versus Progress

Yes, the pain does get better.
But how?

Is it simply because I refuse to acknowledge its existence any longer?
Am I running away... running away from facing up to my screwed up existence, and trying to find answers-

Okay, so the last few rants have been about the never ending pain- and have i progressed :)

Going out, incessant partying, dinner, people, people, people-
Just don't leave me alone with myself anymore

Anything to stop the thinking

Should I lie on the couch and read a book, or should I confront my personal demons?
You get the point.

And I have realized that it is easy. Frighteningly so.
Its very easy to accept to reject the pain. The horror.

Its very easy to live the lie.

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